If I lost my future love light
Can you trust my own set of eyes?
We know it’s hard
But we will never give up on ourselves
‘Cause we have a calling

Everyone has his own burning eternal flame
Everyone can cry with their tough eternal flame
Eternal flame

 

A verse from the song Eternal Flame by D.A.I.

Somehow, listening to this song, I feel like fighting on.

I need to do that.

Though, I still feel like I’m falling down.

I need to pick myself up again.

 

Last assignment was dropped off into the assignment box last thursday.

Heh.

The next war is coming soon.

I better start and get prepared for it.

*smirks*

(Ms. C saw me today and said, “I saw your OCD behaviour.” =-=”)

Well, my routine is rather boring lately.

Nothing much around since I’m too busy to even care.

I need my life back.

I WANT IT!

I can’t wait for holidays to come..

Though I’m… worried a little over my thesis..

But I’m pretty much excited over the year end trip.

BANGKOK!! There is a lot of stuff I wanna see!!

And Phai! I miss the weather there. It’s practically a relaxed vacation over there.

So that also meant that I need to work harder to finish most of my stuff before I go.

Hehehe…

Today I had to accompany my mum over to her friend’s daughter wedding dinner since my dad is away.

It’s… pretty boring.

I waited 1 hour and 30 minutes before the dinner began.

I know no one there, so I sat there, smiling polite to everyone like an idiot.

… I would say… when I get married, please please please play newer songs and not oldies.

Thank you.

If you are sure of your own ability, then you may sing on stage.

If not, please please please don’t be hog the mic.

Thank you.

*sighs* I’m depressed now. =-=”

My aniue isn’t coming back soon so, I have to wait for her till February to see her.

No no… Don’t misunderstand. I’m happy for her because it’s a good oppurtunity.

I guess I feel a lil sad since I’ve been waiting for December to come so I could meet her.

Ahaha.. Seriously, aniue, if you are reading this, don’t worry, I’m just ranting (see, shows how much I miss you).

I’m happy for you to get that offer! Learn more and tell me your experiences when you get back!!!

I’ve finished off the whole Special A series.

Despite the fact that I don’t really read shoujo manga anymore, S.A. is tolerable since the girl was so… funny and … cutely stupid.

And I found D.A.I’s newest album and I love it!

They are really the best together eh?

And also, Mamoru Miyano’s song got me so kyaaaa… I love that dude’s voice.

Heh.

Even Uverworld’s newest single is not bad too.

Ah… I’m getting tired.

Good night^^

It’s rather some depressing few weeks for me.

*sighs* I’ll just try my best.

I’m feeling better, I guess I just need sometime off for myself.

Talking about time… I feel so stupid in the middle of class today.

For Abnormal Psych, we are supposed to come up with a Educational Video.

For some weird reasons, my mind kept registering: Due date- 4th of November. 4th of NOVEMBER!

… Then when I took out my course outline to check out the writing scope individual report for the EV.

I went…. o.o -> O.o -> o.O -> O.O!!!! that Quin gave me the ‘wth’ look.

The due date was supposed to be 12th of November.

And my point is… Why the hell am I rushing for???? =-=”

Other than these, nothing much eventful.

It’s the same routine everyday.

Not much different, week to week.

It’s… kinda tiring actually.

Seniors always said that when you reach year 3 and starting with your thesis, it’s practically no life at all.

=-=” I’m already feeling that way before I even reach the 3rd year. *sighs*

That aside, I have finally finished filling in the Yumekui Kenbun collection.

The ending… Gyahhh… It’s depressing.

Re-reading Hybrid Child is already depressing, the Yumekui Kenbun doesn’t help at all!!

Meanwhile, I went to Kino the other day..

I must say… Now, Kino looks wayyyyyyy more pika pika than before (it has lost its brightness after certain manga was banished).

They are starting to bring in manga from Chuang Yi singapore! =D

Yesh.. I’m excited. Hehehehee…

This talk about books reminded me of one of my dreams.

=D

I would really love to have a small library of my own.

Well, mine may sounds a little different as mine consist more off visual stuff such as mangas and art books.

Sure some of you knows of my love towards mangas and art.

This library is where I could preserve all my books in its most perfect condition.

Yesh, I am a bit OCD with books I love and I would attempt to wrap it in wrappers in order to preserve it (actually, it doesn’t just apply to books).

=-=”

I have watched The Time Traveller’s Wife which brought out a question in my thoughts… I’ve thought about it actually after I have finished reading Hybrid Child…

The question is… How would you feel when you know when you are going to die?

In life, death is very unpredictable.

You can only try to predict when will death occurs, in a patient of a heavy illness.

But at most time, you don’t have a specific time where you say that they will die.

So which is better? Death with knowing it or death without knowing?

Both with its pros and cons, I would say.

However, both brings the same amount of sadness, to you and your loved ones.

Because, it is death.

Something that can’t be evaded but can also be brought upon by your own actions.

It is life.

That’s… something for you to ponder, if you choose to do so.

Now, a song to intro.

Angela Aki’s Somebody Stop Me

Enjoy.

…………. *ting*

I haven’t gotten this excited over reading manga for a long long time.

Don’t think otherwise, perve!

Was just reading newest chapter of Skip Beat! when it stops at a very interesting cliffie!

Darn, I have to wait another 2 weeks? =-=”

Well, I guess I’m used to waiting… after all, Sakura Gari is a seasonal manga that is only released 4 times a year and I’m waiting.

*sniff* When I head out with someone, I often have to wait as well.

(I’m not complaining, just stating)

I’m reading Barajou no Kiss as recommanded by ouji.

I must agree with her because… it’s really not bad.

=D

Nothing much happening around, except for some movies in class and a research paper due just on last Friday.

Now I have 2 more and I gotta concentrate on my exam.

Yes, it’s exam.

=-=”

I seriously need to boost up my motivation.

I really can’t stand myself anymore.

Yosh, gotta work hard.

=-=”

I really do wonder what happened to all my motivations that I had early this semester.

Nil?

On another issue, I found the sountrack for piano collections for Kingdoms Heart.

It has all the songs I love, especially ‘Dearly Beloved’..

Somehow, I really like this songs. =-=”

I’m not bored of it, even after so long and I’m basically collecting every single version it has!

And  I made a discovery… (I’m slow actually).

There is another rendition of Judgement Day in the album Final Fantasy VII: Voices of Lifestream titled Sleep, My Sephy.

Interesting title?

Well, you can try to listen to it via YouTube here.

I find it pretty amusing (the title) and relaxing (the song).

Ouji said my posts are… here and there.

Well, it happens.

Especially when one post randomly with just anything that pops out when they type.

That would be me.

Honestly, whatever I post here really do differ from what I post back then when I’m still using a private blog.

I did read through some posts from before and I thought to myself, “Surely… things seemed different eh?”

Ah, who cares.

As long as I’m comfy eh?

Okay, another here and there post.

I shall leave off for now.

I’ve been pretty quiet lately eh? >.<

Don’t really feel like blogging, so I opened the page and the close if off after a few hours.

So what?

Nothing much. Break just finished a week ago and class for a whole week.

Not enough of break.

Ms. G said that she thought that after the break, we all would return freshed but our mood looked so flattened. =-=”

The break is not enough!! >.<

Coming back to college would also mean there is the never ending assignments. =-=”

After WAIS report, next week would be CC research report.

Mind you, I don’t like research papers anymore!! >.<

The thought of distributing surveys is very very.. VERY scary!

Currently, I’m left with a bunch of surveys to distributes and the subjects must all be Indian!! >.<

Ahhhhhhhhhh…. I’m dreading!! with stress. =-=”

Then there is Treatment Proposal for Counseling… That I have yet touch…

=-=” Since the whole hectic two weeks, my motivation has been decreased to nil.

Perhaps I need some kind of therapy like Quin had mentioned. =-=”

Reality Therapy would be a good one… ….. *groans*

And after today, I’m currently broke.

Broke as in really really broke. =-=”

*sniffs*

I shall say bye bye to Yumekui and also art books for now.

Need to save up for Pasta Zanmai as well since someone is coming back soon.

=P

*sighs* Would have blog more but I’m feeling tired to think here…

Till then. =-=”

At the end of the road, you thought you have seen everything.

But in truth, you have yet seen any.

HAPPY MIDAUTUMN FESTIVAL

I spent the whole night of yesterday trying to fix up KH 358/2 so that I could play.

I almost give up on my last try but somehow, it worked! (Yes, that means there’s Riku for meeeeeeeee)

Since it’s holiday, I’m picking up on Dissidia again (BUT I STILL NEED TO DO MY ASSIGNMENTS >.<).

Mind you, I find any conversation between Sephiroth and Cloud sounded wrong.

VERY WRONG.

While I was playing, the clown, Kefka, from FF6 said this about Sephi:

Who cares? He’s just another sadist with a god complex… Like that’s something special!

Evill, what do you think about this? Hahaha…

I also find the urge to watch Pandora Hearts after having a sneak through. >.<

Should have continue downloading the anime that time.

But the current speed is good.

So I’m happy. =P

It’s MidAutumn festival today.

Sadly, it’s hot as hell over here.

Well, the weather is somehow better today… I think.

Anyways, we’ll be having steambot today. Yum…

Can’t wait for dinner.

Heh.

XD

I was chatting with my aniue yesterday…

Then we kinda reminisce a lil.

It’s been almost 4 years since we know each other.

And ironically, our wavelength match so well that our college mates actually thought we knew each other from before.

Which we say, “No, I just met her this week.”

And also our… latern playing event 2 years ago.

Ahaha.. We burnt one. (I’m repeating this)

Ah… I just noticed, during this whole holiday, I have a lot of pictures to adjust!! >.<

Shit….

Good thing about taking pictures: keeping memories.

Bad thing about the amount: Someone like me would never give any pictures to anyone if I don’t at least adjust the brightness, contrast and levels.

Darn.

I was browsing through my old blog before and I find that… it’s pretty different than in this blog…

How different?

Maybe I’ll reveal to you next time, maybe.

anyways…

Some one go make a garden of lanterns for me k? I want it a Japanese style garden. =P

Tsubasa has officially ended.

I think.

[Note: After that two lines, I got sidetracked for about half an hour]

So far, my Part 1 assignments is done!

Goodjob and thanks to Tzer Fern for the wonderful job. XD

I’m actually thinking of writing a Survival Manual on ‘How to finish 4 assignments in 7 days time’

For 2 weeks, the longest I slept is 4 hours and the shortest is… 1 hour?

=P

[note: I got sidetracked again]

And so I shall continue.

One of my research paper actually had an extension on the day we were supposed to hand up.

But, sadly, I can’t really edit as I have a presentation on the same day the extension’s due date.

*sighs*

So I just threw in the same work I took back that day after I handed it in. =-=”

Darn, I can see a bleak future in that research paper.

(okay, I blame myself for being too relaxed)

Either way, I’m glad it’s over.

Holiday is coming!

Psych social gathering is tomorrow.

=D

Wheee…. yet… There is still some stuffs to do at the same time. *sighs*

Oh well, time for some therapy.

On to 07-Ghost! =D

(actually, I’m lazy to blog right now)

“Perhaps it’s a sin.”

Okay, this phrase came to me suddenly as I was browsing through my old blog.

Nope, my blog is sinless.

Just a link that says Orisinal. Ahahahahah….XD

I’m tired and sleepy.

I can’t wait for tomorrow to be over with!

Then I’ll sleep to my heart content.

(But yet, I’m not done with my slides!)

Actually I’m blogging from my department’s study area when….. internet connection is supposed to be… nil.

Weird, I wonder how I can actually access the internet here. =/

Though it’s a bit unstable.

But still, better than nothing

Gyah… My train of thoughts were disturbed when the line broke off just now.

Till then. =P

I forgot to mention this in my last post and I find the urge to do that.

Dad took my car to fix the dent today, and this gave me an oppurtunity to use his car. Wheee~

That’s a good part.

The bad part?

I’m not satisfied with the work at all!

And there is even a scratch line on my car door which was not there previously.

WTF?

It’s all the LDP’s fault!

Who ask the stupid barrier to fall before I even pass through.

Don’t they have a better system? Thanks to this, I fell worried passing through any barriers (generalization).

Not to mention all the trouble I had to take to actually apply for the claim.

I don’t give a damn about those claim.

I just want my car to be back normal!

The finishing work sucks. It feels so much different from before.

Idiots………………………. >.<