I know. 

It’s been a very long time since the last time I ever posted anything.

I don’t know. I guess I just lost the passion of typing anything?

It’s a whole new year since the last post.

To be honest, a lot of stuff happened in 2011.

Things are like:

 

1. Finally graduating.

2. Searching for a job

3. Found a job.

4. Subsequently, left that job after 6 months.

5. Nevertheless, I still met some wonderful people.

6. Found a new job and tadaa, I’m kinda happy with it.

7. Went through convocation (I have waited 10 months for it!)

8. Changes in personal life 

 

That sort of stuff. I don’t need to go into detail. XD

So what’s my resolution?

I don’t know. Every year I would make some resolution but, at the end of the day, by the 1st month, it would have failed by then.

So after that I stopped.

I just let everything flow as it is.

I guess it’s no harm to make some though.

I guess… part of my this year’s resolution would be… managed myself better, learn more and improve myself at work.

That sorta thing. The usual and boring stuff.

 

Lately, I feel like I’m kinda losing grip of myself.

I find that once I stopped writing, I spend less time reflecting/reminiscing and etcs.

Whatever you call it.

At times, I felt as if I’m slowly losing grip of it.

 

I miss the people whom I used to see almost everyday for 3 years.

(Trust me, they are the bunch of most fun and awesome people to be around with)

But it’s a phase in life that we all go through.

Like when I would start missing high school in college times.

Oh well, sorry for it. 

Sometimes, I just can’t help it. Ahhaha… >.<

 

Well, just something to start the year with? lol.

But I don’t know when I’ll post anything again.

 

So long… for now?

 

Ups and downs.

Something that everyone have.

Somehow, I feel like I’m back to where I started.

The same place that I did many years ago.

I thought I had a path, I had a goal.

Crystal clear in mind.

 

But I don’t know anymore.

Sometimes, I might know.

Sometimes, I might not.

*sighs*

 

Right. What a way to start blogging after so long with some emo, I’m-so-lost post.

LoL.

Life is okay.

Work is… as usual. Who likes work?

 

…

And that’s it.

I’m out of stuff to say.

Just a post to show that I am alive.

Yes, I am.

 

Mata ne!

 

Hi, the name is absent minded + clumsy.

 

… T_T I lost my Borders Reward Card!

I don’t even remember when or where I lost it.

I wanted to use last Sunday to get a book and it’s not where it’s usually is.

D:

I tried searching all my bags but I just couldn’t locate it. Ugh.

I have an extra one… Just that… I dislike losing things.

*sighs*

 

So, it’s been a while since I really blog anything at all.

Life… is life.

The usual.

I guess the difference would be that, instead of assignments assignments and classes. 

I’m talking about work.

Work…. is okay.

I guess the only best thing I like would be the people whom I work with.

Oh well, I’ll work my best and learn everything before I start planning the next stage in my life.

 

It’s life and it’s the challenge that makes you grow and learn.

 

I’ll make this a really short blog and hopefully soon, I’ll be back to blog more.

Mata ne!

 

I noticed, on the way home that I never got lost, I passed scenes that I seemed to be seeing for the first time .

In the blue of the sky, black is incessantly mixing and spreading.

I should probably flee,  how much of the meaningless land I walk.

Against all that is before my eyes, I embrace the feelings of malaise and distrust and stand firm.

The basis that I lost sight of myself, I recalled and from here I slip out

Like clinging on anyone that has already turned around, I don’t want to choose such an escaping way.

Confused by only negligible expendables, stepping out gently,

aren’t treated like trash,  but are like holding orderly arranged pebbles

Am I only looking at the hills I crossed over? Do I only not want to forget the paths I have passed?

My uncertainty ties me to terror, it’s good to know the weakness that was severed

To the echos that do not reach immediately, I swore to continue singing

The grey night that tears the barrens and continues everywhere, now we are waiting for the sun to set west

The basis that I lost sight of myself, I recall and from here I slip out

Like clinging on anyone that has already turned around, I don’t want to choose such an escaping way..

Taken from Riuva.

Got addicted to this song again. 

I haven’t posted, ever since I started my job.

It’s not that I’m super duper mega bummer busy.

It’s just that… I’m having my writer’s block as usual.

Well… I just don’t feel like blogging.

So what’s up with my life?

Nothing much.

Work is great, especially when you have awesome colleagues.

Learning more stuff on things that I hope to be able to do in the future.

Well, the future is still vague but I can see it forming. =D

Next, personal life.

Nothing much, life is.. life.

Meeting friends again and reminisce how was used to do things.

Back then was reminiscing high school + college life.

Now it’s high school + college + uni.

Been making effort to meet each other at least once a month (applicable for some).

It’s getting hard with everyone on their fulltime class/job.

Oh well, I guess that’s just make us treasure our time together even more.

=D

Well, that’s just to clear the cobwebs from blog. I don’t really have much to blog, for now.

See ya all!

Last Wednesday night was Aniue’s convocation.

Last Thursday night was Psychology Annual Dinner 2011.

Had a great time with everyone that I love and treasured (involved a lot of camwhorings) for all these 3 years of Psychology.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to present the speech on behalf of you all. *bows*

Now, the last thing would be the convocation in October.

I just can’t wait. huhuhuhu….

 

Unknowingly, we are all moving to another chapter in life.

That includes me.

Right.

Yours truly is now employed and work starts tomorrow.

Considering that I’ll be going to a field where I know little about it, I’ll try my best to do it!! =D

Besides, I think it’s a good place to start with before heading onto the area that I would like to attempt. =P

 

That aside, earthquakes have been occurring in quite a number of nations and when it comes, it brought along tragedy.

First it was the earthquake in New Zealand.

Thankfully, my cousin is okay.

After that, the earthquake that struck Japan and it is just so… …horrendous.

And insensitive idiots spewing idiotic comment is not helping at all.

Honestly, not because I’m into the Japanese culture that I’m bias.

If I would dig back, I could do the same because it’s not only their nation that was being attacked before!

In any situation, regardless of the country, when such tragedy struck, it’s always horrible.

Come on! We are humans, have more compassion!

Where the fuck is your heart?

I don’t get how people can dig back old stories out and call it a Karma for what the Japanese did.

Seriously. At such times?

It’s the sins of the previous generation.

Stop lumping them up.

I choose to let it go because it makes life happier that way.

I don’t get all these things about differences in race, religion, nation and people.

It all boils down to one thing.

We are still humans and being that, there shouldn’t be anyone who is far superior than any other people.

And it’s not as if the Japanese did not escape from any retribution from their previous act.

It’s just insensitive and horrible that my blood boils reading those posts.

*sighs*

The world is changing and all these are not the act of karma or what so ever.

Even if you refuse to pray or whatsoever, just leave it and shut it!

*takes a deep breath to calm down*

 

That aside, I have to praise the Japanese for being really civilized.

Preparing and offering free food and drinks for stranded people, offering free ride to people who would like to go to the same directions and queuing up for their business.

But that’s a good way to handle a situation.

To remain calm and collected in case of emergency because it is always the rash behaviours in a panicked situation that often makes thing worse.

 

In anyway, I just wish that every thing would take a better turn. >.<

Based on predictions, another earthquake would hit somewhere.

I hope that it’ll never come.

 

*sighs* I shall be leaving now.

Gotta be up early for work.

I’ll do my best, so wish me luck!!

 

Lately, I’ve been sleeping late.

… Perhaps it’s due to the reason that I’m jobless, and I’m actually very bored of my current state.

… Yeah, I know that you’ll say that I’ll start complain when I get busy.

But =-=” I seriously don’t really wanna just sit here and don’t do much.

D:

Been working hard at sending out resumes.

I’ll continue that tomorrow.

 

Had my 1st interview last Tuesday.

I had screwed it.

However, I’m very positive about it.

It made me think and question myself.

I guess you could say, if I don’t have a pressure, I won’t start questioning?

Somehow, I’ve realized what I want and set up my resolve to try what I’ve always wanted to try.

I’ve thought about it a lot.

What do I want to do with my life.

Yeah, there are certain things that I cannot foresee now.

But I know that I want to take charge of my life.

I really need to be more decisive.

I can be very decisive, but at the same time, when it comes to the part when I need to move, I’ll… stop.

I don’t know what to do and I hesitate… when I think about the kind of things that could happen in the course of my decision.

There are various factor that had led to this.

However, I want to persist.

I’ll do something I like.

You won’t know till you try right? and like the saying goes, ‘No pain no gain’.

After all, I have completed my 3 years of Psychology and it hasn’t been easy.

*smirks*

Well, you might see me ranting in here from time to time.

But I really wanna try and persist through this path that I have chosen.

 

That aside, my time table has been pretty colorful.

Been meeting various people during my… vacation here.

I still need to meet more people but… *sighs* they are busy.

Then next week, there is Aniue’s convo and Psych’s Annual Dinner.

… I have yet found my dress and shoes. D:

Okay. I’ll think about that later.

 

Alright, that’s all for now.

I just want to rant for a moment and…. well… just a post before February ends.

LOL. =D

Well, lately, I’ve been craving for cakes.

Yet that craving is unsettled. D:

How sad.

Anyways, it’s been pretty busy lately.

(Yes, I’m not just a waste that sits at home)

Been doing the usual and some part times with duckie and just last Saturday, loonie no. x have joined us.

According to Fiona, we all act fun when together.

And in reply, duckie and SJ said, ‘WE are FUNNY.’

Oh well, I guess this is what that sparked up the ‘Hips don’t lie’ story.

 

Neways, I’ve decided to put an end to my… ‘days of wasting away’ and start to be MORE serious (as serious I could be).

And sent out some resumes.

I need to start earning already; if not, how can I contribute? (and buy stuffs. ahahah)

I do wanna go on a happy shopping trip with others. =D

(and save up for an Ipad because I want it for.. some reasons [you know I know])

But anyway, I do want a job.

All these job hunt is making me a lil depressed and useless here.

Like what they say, I just gotta stop bumming around.

Gotta start trusting myself and my own ability.

heh.

But before that, I need to start getting ready for the annual dinner.

XD

Any suggestion that I could take? The theme is Alice in wonderland (I’m pretty sure that they worded it another way but I shall just write it this way).

All these job talk suddenly reminded me abt those erm, life prediction thing.

According to it, my future job would have me flying all over the world.

Hah. Let see where the future takes me to. =P

 

Alright, I guess I’ll stop for now.

Ja!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~

 

May you all be well and hyper like a Rabbit.

v^_^v

Eat well and enjoy~

Work was pretty fun BUT tiring.

On Friday afternoon, we managed to laze off till about 4 something (I think) before we start working all the way up to 2 am.

After bathing, my left arm hurt (it’s not sore) like nobody’s business.

Luckily (for some of us and unfortunately, not for duckie), we could come to work at 3 pm.

Since we managed to set everything up the day before, our job scope for that night was just lighting the candles and be  coconut guard (I kid you not. We pose around like body guards, eye-ing the coconuts. This is because the coconuts are placed on the table, supported by stones. Since it’s real coconuts, the shapes obviously varied and we had to keep an eye on it to ensure it does not topple down and fix it if it does).

The last thing… would be the tear down which took about 1 and 1/2 hours. (Kinda sad eh? set up took more than that by a lot)

 

During the whole process, me and Evill had a number of loon talks.

The first one began on our way over to the place.

The topic came up because we saw a pink coloured car with a Minnie mouse (am I right?) graphic on it.

Then duckie mentioned about a kancil totally (in and out) decorated with Hello Kitty design and it is driven by a guy.

After that, Duckie said, “Wait wait, we can do a View Finder style.”

This brought out a series of laughter between two of us (which I think her brother and his friend is probably going wtf)

However, I think we might have to discard the idea because the police might stop us for what is termed ‘gambar gambar lucah’ (actually, I was thinking of something more decent. Duckie, what are thinking about?)

Later, while eating, I told her that actually, it’s not a bad idea to get the Asami bedsheet.

What are we gonna do with it? I’ll just keep that a secret, just in case you think that I’m actually getting more loon.

During their live band, I actually thought that the start of some song sounded so like some songs I listened to.

Such as Sweet Pool.

When duckie came back, I was like, ‘….. I thought abt Sweet Pool.’ (she agreed with me)

Then on our way home, we head over to A&W for some food (since the food at the event didn’t look that appetizing).

We talked about how some animes are just so slashable.

After that Duckie said that she would like to write book on Yaoi Maths Equation.

I shall wait for her to write.

 

Oh yeah, on our way out of the hall, we passed by this dude with some long ass straight hair.

When I looked at his face, he gave me this, ‘I’m so sexy’ look.

I immediately looked away.

According to duckie, he was looking at me (I hope not) and winked at me (I HOPE NOT).

Whatever it is, I’m glad I looked away the moment I sense weird vibes.

D:

I thought he looked like he’s under the weather (aka sick as in ill) while duckie thought that he looked like he was gonna throw up on her feet anytime soon.

…

Not to mention the fact some idiots keep going around with all the ‘amoi amoi’ that I felt damn freaked out to even work alone upstairs (since it’s super quiet over there).

 

*sighs*…. I’m getting tired actually.

=-=” I guess that’s it for now. D: